Lindsey Lives Fit

My First Bikini Competition

So I just realized I never did a post-bikini competition blog post! I found out I was pregnant the week after the show sooo THAT kinda took over my mind. Life has been kinda crazy since then but even though the show was 4 months ago (seriously, where does time go?) I want to share my show day experience with you all.

The show day experience started the day before with getting spray tanned.  For whatever reason, I was really looking forward to getting that crazy competition tan. I don’t know why! I’m pretty sure the excitement masked the low carb fog of peak week.

I showed up at the host gym, got checked in, got my height card (I’m for sure 5’3 and now I have a card to prove it) when waited in line to get the of so coveted spray tan, after dropping  $125 bucks. Yup. That’s how much they cost. If you’ve ever considered doing a bikini competition, you need to be ok with nudity. Nobody warned me about the nudity factor, so I’m warning you, just incase.

I walked into the designated tanning room, a group exercise room full of little tanning pods. I was directed to my pod and was told to strip it down. You have privacy in the pod BUT you walk from your waiting pod to the pod you actually get the tan in totally naked. Annddd as you walk to get sprayed you get to see every other naked ladies while passing. Great way to scope out the competition.😉   This is the time I really dropped my pride… After getting my front side tanned, I was instructed to turn around, do a little squat and stick it out! Gotta make sure all those creases are nice and tan too. And yes, it is beyond awkward! I was seven shades of red…. and deep brown/orange. After getting tanned, I awkwardly walked back to my pod, still nude (arms out stretched, legs stiff)  to dry. It was June in Florida and we were crammed into a stuffy group exercise room so standing in front of the fans was actually really nice! When I was dry enough to dress, I discovered my pants were too tight! They said to wear loose fitting pants but I guess mine weren’t  loose enough. One of the girls working there actually told me change into looser pair as soon as I got home or it could mess up my tan! I obeyed! Of course, this information made me absolutely paranoid and freaked out that I just ruined my $125 tan and that the judges would find me absolutely repulsive and score me down. I changed as soon as I got home and felt somewhat better but still worried over my leg creases that look really dark. I double checked my list, made sure everything was ready to go for the big day, then it was off to bed for a crazy early wake up call. 4:00am, that’s still night time in my book. 


As much as I tried to sleep it just wasn’t happening. I was so nervous and excited about the day i’ve worked so hard for. So many thoughts were going through my head, it was so hard to silence them. When I did finally fell asleep, I would wake up and look at my phone to make sure I didn’t over sleep. When my alarm finally when off at 4 am, I was relieved. Because 1.) It was show day and 2.) It was time to EAT! And eat CARBS for that matter! I ate then got busy on my hair. At this point, I was super excited. I guess those carbs kicked it 🙂 and I was about to get my makeup done. I LOVE having my makeup professionally applied and couldn’t wait  to have a face full of stage makeup.  I had my makeup done by Candice Keene. Candice is IFBB Figure Pro, she has about a million bodybuilding trophies, is a makeup artist, offers online training and posing coach. On top of all that, she super sweet! She actually told me that morning that she was pregnant! Little did we know there was actually two pregnant ladies in my kitchen that day. I could not have been happier with how my makeup turned out. It was perfect!

After makeup came hair again. I wore some extension for a little extra length, so my sister came over and helped me put them in.  Not only did my sister’s wake up early to help me out, it was also her birthday and she let me borrow her extensions for the big day. She’s the best!  I was all glammed up and it was time to head to the venue. This is when the nerves REALLY kicked in. I probably double check my bag 5 times to make sure I wasn’t leaving anything at home.

I got to the venue, checked in, got my tan touched up and when to the athletes meeting. I got settled into the dressing room and the waiting game began. Bikini division was last on the line up. Time went by pretty fast because it was so fun chatting with all the girls! I’ve heard horror stories about backstage sabotages but everyone was so sweet and really supportive! When it was finally bikini time, I was actually really excited and not nervous at all! This was the part I’ve been wait for! Getting on stage and working those poses that I’ve practiced for sooo long!

For pre judging, we did our front pose, turn and back pose. Then it was a game of simon says. Turn left, Turn right, turn around, switch places. If you ever do a bikini competition be sure to LISTEN! You could tell the judges would get annoyed when they had to repeat themselves. Thankfully, I listen and didn’t miss anything.  They moved us around a lot and it was kinda hard to tell where I was in the lineup (being center is usually a good thing) BUT I knew I wasn’t on the end! I did this a total of three times. I enter the novice, open and master division. After judging it  was lunch time. Off to Chipotle! After lunch, I stopped in at my friend Brandy’s baby shower then headed home for a quick nap. I was feeling the sleepless night at this point.

It was time for the night show and  I couldn’t wait to get on stage again. I really wasn’t worried about placing. Sure, I wanted to but at that point I already felt a great sense of accomplishment! The night show went by so fast and before you knew it, it was bikni time! They called us out one by one for our posing routines then it was time for trophies! They called out the 3rd and 2nd place winner….then it was time to announce the first place winner. And they called MY NAME! I won the novice division! I cannot describe how it felt to stand there on stage with a trophy in my hand. All the hard work paid off. All the sacrifice, all the sore muscle, everything was worth it! A Mom of a two year won a bodybuilding trophy. My name was called out two more times. Second place in the short open division and 2nd place in masters. To say it was a great time would be a total understatement.

After the show, my husband and I headed to Mellow Mushroom where I  enjoy a pizza, coke and ice cream cookie sundae. At this point I couldn’t wait to get a shower and take out my hair extension! That night I slept like a baby. A smiling, tummy full of pizza baby.

I get asked a lot if I will ever do another show. And yes, I would totally do another after baby #2 but I don’t think it will be a every year kinda thing for me. My big priority now (other than my family) is my online training! I absolutely LOVE helping women feel great about themselves and teach them how to incorporate fitness into their lives in practical ways. I can’t wait to see where it goes and I’m looking forward to building relationship with some amazing ladies.

Thanks for reading! 

~ Lindsey 

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22 week Bump Date

I cannot believe I’m closer to the end of my pregnancy than the start!  Overall, I’m feeling great!

How far along: 22 weeks

How big is the peanut: The size of a Papaya

Total weight gain: Up 10 pounds. 

Maternity Clothes:
 I’ve tried on a few pairs of maternity pants but yoga pants…..

Sleep:  Like a ROCK! 

Best moment this week:  Seeing the kicks from the outside. He’s getting stronger! 

Symptoms:  None! I’m feeling great and my burger craving has  calmed  down too! 

Food Craving/Aversion:
 No cravings really.

Gender: IT’S A BOY! And we officially have a name. Baby boy’s name is Crew Thomas

What I miss: Sleeping on my stomach

Exercise: Still at it! Speaking of exercise…I’ll be launching my online training starting Monday! I’m so excited to get this going! Live Life Fit is all about fitting fitness into your life with fast workouts that get you major results and proper nutrition information. Annnd  I have a special offer just for my blog readers! You can sign up TODAY ONLY for just $10.00! Yup, that’s right your first month will only be 10 BUCKS! Use the code “BLOG” at check out. Click here to get started! This coupon code is only good till midnight tonight so don’t miss out! 

My favorite stretch mark creams

During my first pregnancy I was obsessed with preventing stretch marks. After about 25 weeks I would scan my belly,hips,boobs,butt and thighs for any tiny red squiggly lines then lather up the bump several times a day! I’m happy to announce that I ended my pregnancy stretch mark feel. In all fairness, I had a six pound baby and only gained about 20 lbs.

This pregnancy I’m a little more laid back. No, I don’t want stretch marks but they can come with the territory  and it wouldn’t be the end of the world. If the worst thing that happens to me during my pregnancy is stretch marks, I’m good!

Even though stretch marks can’t be 100% avoided (hello genetics) there are some things that you can do to keep your skin in great condition.

Hydrate! Your body has an increased demand for hydration. Your skin also needs to be hydrated for optimal skin elasticity. The better the skin elasticity the better it is at stretching out. I’m personally aiming for a gallon of water a day.

Here’s my favorite creams and oils:

1.) Belli Elasticity Belly Oil – Stretch Mark Protection for Smooth, Healthy Skin – OB/GYN and Dermatologist Recommended – 3.8 oz.

It smells AMAZING. The lavender scent is so relaxing absorbs great and it doesn’t feel sticky.


2.) Mustela Stretch Marks Intensive Action Cream, 2.53 Ounce

It’s a like bit on the pricey side but it is great! It is thick and amazing for hydration. Smells good but a little flowery.

3.)Bio-Oil 4.2oz: Multiuse Skincare Oil

Looovee Bio-Oil! Easy on the wallet and keep your skin so soft and hydrated.

4.)Palmer’s Cocoa Butter Formula Tummy Butter For Stretch Marks, 4.4-Ounce Units (Pack of 3)

Another one that is easy on the wallet. This way my night time cream. So thick.










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18 Week Bump Date

How far along: 18 weeks!

How big is the peanut:
The size of a bell pepper.

Total weight gain/loss:
 Up 6 pounds. Coming in at 120.

Maternity Clothes:
Not yet. I live in yoga pants and maxi dresses! I actually found a super comfy pair of leggings that look like real pants! They even have back pockets and totally look like “real” black skinny’s but their totally leggings. They are the Metro High Waisted Legging from Athleta .

Still good. And I’m not shy about it sleeping in as much as possible. I figure my days of getting actual sleep are numbered so might was well enjoy it!

Best moment this week:  Really feeling the baby move around! It makes it so real! I’m really have another baby! 

Symptoms:  I wear out easily and I’m hungry all.the.time. 

Food Craving/Aversion:
 No cravings really. I like all food equally. I’m finding that Kale and Spinach taste a lot like dirt lately.

Gender: IT’S A BOY! 

What I miss: Sleeping on my stomach

What I’m looking forward to: Hitting the 20 week mark! All down heel from there, right?

Bump: Bigger by the week!

 Exercise makes me feel good! Even if it’s just walk, it just makes me feel better. Less aches and pains and give me energy. I’ve also started teaching a prenatal exercise class at a local fitness studio. If you’re local to the Central Florida area you have to check out The Balance Culture!

14 Week update

How far along: 14 weeks. Yay for officially in the second trimester!

How big is the peanut:
The size of a Lemon

Total weight gain/loss:
 Total gain so far is 4 lbs 

Maternity Clothes:
No maternity clothes but I’m all about flowy and my yoga pants are getting tight!

Still good! I’m naturally a belly sleeper which has pretty much come to an end!

Best moment this week:  
The awful hormonal chin acne starting to go away thanks to Belli

Feeling pretty good and symptom free.

Food Craving:
 Red meat! I need burgers and steak in my life!

Too soon to know BUT the appointment is made to find out! Come on Sept 3rd!

What I miss:
Botox. Just keeping it real. 

What I’m looking forward to:
Finding out the sex! Pink or Blue! 

Bump: It’s here. Still not very big but you can feel it popping out above my pelvic bone!

 As a personal trainer, I stay active with my clients and teaching classes BUT this week’s goal is to focus on MY workouts. It’s all about safe core exercise and I will be sharing them with you all next week!

12 weeks update 


How far along:
12 weeks 

How big is the peanut:
The size of a Lime

Total weight gain/loss:
up another pound. Coming in at 116.

Maternity Clothes:
Not yet. Thankfully, flowy tops are in! Seriously loving this top from Grace and grit boutique. It’s not a maternity shirt but there’s plenty of room to grow! 

Amazing! I’m out within minutes and don’t move until morning. 

Best moment this week:
Feeling the first tirmister tiredness starting to fade!  

Symptoms/ Morning sickness:
Pregnancy Brain! Last week I had to make a return at Target. Got half way there and realized I forgot want I was trying to return. Turned around to get it, got to target and forgot my wallet at home! 

 The last few weeks have been off and on. One day I’ll feel 100% then the next I’m sick as a dog. I’ve randomly thrown up twice. No apparent cause. 

Food Craving:
Burgers still! One with cheese, onion, pickles, mayo, mustard and ketchup. And now my mouth is watering.  

Food Aversions:
No food aversions. 

Too soon to know. 

What I miss:
I’m not really missing anything this week. Pretty satisfied being Prego. 

What I’m looking forward to:
This week’s appointment! Nothing like hearing that little heart beat! 

Bump: It’s on the way! The whole “you show faster with your second” is so so true for me! 

Getting back into swing of it! The last two weeks were off a little with not feeling well but I’m ready to get back into my routine. I’m also taking some continuing education classes regarding proper pregnancy exercises! I’m so stoked to be learning this info to pass on to my clients AND apply to myself! 

This week’s takeaway:
Your second pregnancy is alway harder. It’s harder because you already have a child. In my situation (most moms actually) a very young child. Toddlers don’t get “Mommy wants a break” BUT it totally melts my heart when she runs up to me, throws her arms around me and starting talking to the baby. I can’t wait to see her as a big sister. 

Addison’s Birth Story 


July 28th 2013

It was a hot Sunday in North Florida. We didn’t have much planned that day, basically the definition of a lazy Sunday. I was two days past my due date and was getting pretty anxious. That afternoon I went on my daily “I’m gonna walk this baby out” walk in the July heat. My neighbor was out doing yard work and every time I made the loop he would shout out a  “You need some water? ” Girl, that baby has dropped!” “Go home before I have to deliver your baby!” Each time me giving him the smile and wave.

I came back home, hopped in the shower and started getting ready for dinner. While getting ready I had to pee for the 20th time that day. Did the deed and there was a little something extra when I wiped. My mucus plug. Seeing it shocked and excited me. If I’m losing my plug then there’s probably some progress down there. At my doctors appointment a few days prior, I was dilated to 1cm and had my membranes swept so I was hoping this lovely glob was a sign of progress!

I skipped out to the living room and announced to my husband “I lost my plug! It still on the toilet paper. Wanna see it?!?’ He glared at me for a few seconds then said “yeah.” So he followed me into the bathroom to meet my snotty little friend.

Then I text a few of my girl friends. We have no TMI limit.

Shortly after we finally flushed the plug, we headed out for dinner. Little did we know, our last dinner as a married couple with no children. We went to FishHouse (if you’re in the Pensacola, FL area you MUST go to the Fish House. Grits a ya-ya are amazing!)

I ordered sushi (the cooked kind) with a ton of wasabi. we have all heard the spicy food wives tale so I figured I’d give it a shot.

After dinner we relaxed, watched TV and got ready for bed and I fell asleep wondering when I was going to meet my baby.

July 29, 2013

This morning started like no other. It was about 4am and I woke up to mild contractions. Not strong enough yet to be painful but definitely uncomfortable. I was able to go back to sleep for about an hour. I knew this was it and I was trying to relax and get as much rest as possible.  After laying in bed was not longer comfortable, I moved into the bath tub. Being in the water felt amazing and really helped me to relax.

Contractions really started to pick up, so I got out and made myself some breakfast. Scrambled eggs and a Pbj. Yes, I know….odd combo. Contractions were getting much stronger and I decided to start timing them. The best way to describe contractions is a roller coaster. It starts slowly. The intensity goes up, up, up, up, a second or so of steady, like you’re  at the top of the ride ready to plummet to the bottom.  Then you’re on the way down and relief is immediate. And in between contractions, it was like just another Monday.  No pain.

My goal was to have a natural, unmedicated birth with interventions being used only for emergencies. I prepared myself mentally for the marathon of labor and my focus was on breathing and relaxing. Think about it….your body is trying to open up. It’s better to relax and let it open, rather than to tenses up and work against it.

At this point, I started feeling  really nauseous. I remember from my Bradley Method classes that getting sick can be a sign that you’re in transition (the last part of active labor). Contractions were about 4 minutes apart so we decided it was time to head for the hospital. It’s traditional for “Bradley Births” to drink orange after you deliver. We didn’t have any OJ on hand so we made a pit stop on the way to the hospital. I remember we parked next a county sheriff  at the gas station and I was so close to rolling down my window being like “Can I get an escort?”

When we arrived at the hospital it was raining. Jerett dropped me off by the door and parked the car. I delivered at the Naval Hospital so it was much smaller than your normal busy hospital. I loved my experience there! Labor and Delivery was on the 8th floor so we made our way up. I loved how laid back the naval hospital was. You basically walk up and they point you to your room. It was obvious that I was in hard labor so they checked me right away. I remember thinking “If THIS is 3 cm, I don’t know if I can do much more.” The nurse checked me and I was at 8cm. I think I said out loud “Oh thank you, Jesus!” Which would be really the only thing I would say while in labor. I was very much in the zone. I just kept my mind on relaxing and was very mindful of my breathing.  

Then the back labor kicked it. The only position that felt comfortable on standing over my bed swaying my hips back and forth. Jerett was a great help and coach. He would rub my shoulders, apply pressure to my lower back and was great at following my cues. I was so in the zone, I really didn’t have much sense of time. A few minutes/hours went by and I felt the urge.

“Ok! I have to push, NOW!” The nurse had me get on the bed and she checked me and I was fully dilated! Due to my request for minimal interventions, my water hadn’t been broken and had not broke on it’s own. Well it did with the first practice push and then IT WAS ON. The nurse stopped me from pushing because she didn’t want to be the one to deliver the baby! Thankfully, my doctor was close by and it was time to get to work. Pushing was in some way a relief. Like I could finally put all this pressure I was feeling to work. It took me a few push to figured it out. I remember I just started praying to myself. “God, please help me to make this quick! I can’t do this for long.” My mind went to all those stories I’ve heard of women who pushed for 3 hours. If you are one of those women, you’re my hero and I love you.

Things got a little intense at this point. Addison was stuck on my pelvic bone and her heart rate was dropping. My doctor wanted to do an episiotomy to help get her out. Thankfully, he had a midwife assisting him and she stepped up and saved the day…and my vigina. There’s no way pleasant was to say this so I’m just gonna say it, She inserted her fingers in my bum (didn’t even buy me dinner first) moved Addison a little, told me to give her a big push and the next thing I know, I look down to a pink, wrinkly little baby with the most beautiful almond shaped eye staring back at me.  I only push for about 15 minutes. We did immediate skin to skin and she nursed right away. She stole my heart in an instant and I never want it back.

I love sharing my birth story because this is by far my greatest achievement. For me, birth was about honoring my body and it’s amazing ability.

There was a time where I would think someone was “wrong” for electing a c-section over natural birth but I’ve learned that I was wrong.  Regardless of the type of birth you have in mind, you should birth your baby the way your want to. Natural, C-section, meds, no meds, whatever!  There are way too many Mommy Wars out there and this should be one of the most amazing times in your time. You don’t need to be judge about the way you want to birth.

So let’s make it a goal to love and support each other. Being a Mom is hard enough! Let’s love instead of judge!

To my sweet Addison,

I think God everyday that he chose me to be your Mommy. You have brought me so much joy and love. Your smiles makes my soul happy. I often wonder what those beautiful almond eyes will see in your life. You never will know how much I love you. Happy Birthday! (I’m totally not crying right now)


16 Fun First Pregnancy Facts

1. Addison is our “Operation Enduring Freedom Baby.” Jerett got home from Afghanistan in October and Addison was born in July. Do the math. 😉
(Home at Last! ❤️🇺🇸)

2.) The night before I found out I was pregnant, I threw a glass of wine at my husband. Can you say hormonal? 

3.) I found out I was pregnant the morning of the Marine Corps Ball.

(Just a few hours after we found out! )

4.) I got the flu when I was 10 weeks pregnant. In my adult life, I’ve never had a flu shot or the flu but at my yearly appointment prior to even getting pregnant my Doctor advise me to get one. I did and a few months later got the flu. Haven’t had a flu shot since and don’t plan on it. #toeachtheirown 

5.) I moved from North Carolina to Florida at 14 weeks. We did a ditty move (know in the military world as a “do it yourself move”) and I made the drive down following a big yellow moving truck with Hank (big chocolate lab) riding shot gun. 

(First offical bump pic in our empty house right befor leaving North Carolina)  

6.)After getting settled  in Pensacola, we did our first McGuire’s Run 5 months pregnant. 

(Shirt caption- “he got luck 5 months ago” And can we please discuss how tall the guy in the back ground is?!)

7.) I did yoga and ran several times a weeks. 

(Post gym bump selfie!) 

8.)I failed my one hour glucose test.

9.) I failed my three hour test too. 

10.) I “had” gestational diabetes. I say “had” because after months of monitoring and sticking my finger several times a day, I never got a high blood sugar reading. Even after pasta. I gain 19 lbs my whole pregnancy and had a 6 lbs baby. So I “had” GB. Maybe I just didn’t study hard enough for my glucose test? 🤔

11.) My goal was a natural/ unmediated birth because 1.) I think it’s something my body was made to do and 2.) the thought of an needle going into my spine freaks me out more than the thought of pushing a baby out. But hey…to each its own. No judgement. 

12.) I forced my husband to take a 6 week “Bradley Method” natural birthing class. He was resistant at first but ended up really enjoying it. When the class was over he said he was pretty sure he could deliver a baby now.

13.) I obsessively cover my belly in oils and creams to keep the stretch marks bay. 

(Greasy baby bump) 

14.) I didn’t get any stretch marks 

15.) Thankfully, I went into labor on my own and was able to reach my goal of a unmedicated birth. 

(The morning before Addison was born) 

16.) I’m hoping this pregnancy will be as good as my last! Fingers crossed!  

( One of my favorite pictures. This was Thanksgiving 2012 on the NC coast. Not many people knew it then, but they were looking at a family of 3. 4 including Hank.)

My pregnancy nutrition

Proper nutrition during pregnancy is without a doubt one of greatest gift you can give your developing baby. Supplying your body with nutritious food can improve your fertility (if you’re trying), keep you feeling healthy during pregnancy, and pave the way for an easier labor. Pregnancy is the one time in your life when your eating habits directly affect another person. Crazy to think that the food we eat is actually building a human!


And it’s time that we put the whole “eating for two” thing to rest. Regardless of what your Grandma says or the amount of donuts she offers you, you’re not eating for two. Yes, your calorie intake does need to increase to support the growing peanut but for most women at a healthy weight, caloric intake should only increase about 200-300 calories a day  in the second and third trimester.  (Always consult your healthcare provider)


My Approach to Pregnancy Nutrition

First off, I’m not a perfect eater (is anyone really though) and my goal is to always strive for balance. I love ice cream as much as the next person and I rarely turn it down. To help me stay on track and to make sure I’m getting proper nutrition for my little peanut I will be tracking my macros 80% of the time. I’m a big fan of the 80/20 rule. I love to eat healthy and I do most of the time. But  then there’s the special occasions, friday night pizza and the randoms cookie baking/ eating session. It happens and guilt shouldn’t be any where near it!


I started tracking my macros (protein, carbs, fats) during my bikini prep and really enjoyed it. I like tracking macros because it lets me know where I’m at with my nutrition, plus it gives me insight on what foods work for me.  Overall, it just helps me to eat more healthy!


So how do I track my macros?  First off, I figure out what my macros are going to be.  My macros are 40% protein, 30% carbs and 30% fats.


I like to keep my proteins higher because I just feel better with a higher protein diet and protein is very important for pregnant ladies.  Experts recommend 75 to 100 grams of protein per day(which is nothing compared to a bikini prep diet 😉) Protein positively affects the growth of fetal tissue, including the brain. It also helps your breast and uterine tissue to grow during pregnancy, and it plays a role in your increasing blood supply.


After I decide on my macros amounts, I log my food intake with Myfitnesspal app. I seriously love this app and it is my main tracking tool. It’s so easy to use and say on track. If your food has a barcode all you do is scan and all the nutrition info is instantly upload and it shows you exactly where you’re at with your eating for the day. And it makes it real when you go to scan the back of the Oreo package and you actually SEE what a few oreo’s can do to a day of good eating!

Does the thought of “tracking macros” make your head spin? Not sure how much you should be eating? Let me help! Nutrition Coaching is available!




How far along: 10 weeks

How big is the peanut: The size of a Kumquat

Total weight gain/loss: 1 lbs up. Still maybe rebounding from bikini prep.

Maternity Clothes: Nope.

Sleep: Like a rock!

Best moment this week: Finding the perfect pregnancy safe skincare line! Full review to come!

Symptoms/ Morning sickness:  Fatigue is slowing going away (YAY!) but I’ve had some stomach issue this week. Not sure if it’s pregnancy related or if I just caught a bug.

Food Craving: Honestly, This week I’ve wanted not so good foods! Burgers sounds like heaven.

Food Aversions: No food aversions

Gender: Too soon to know but I’m guessing a Boy!

What I miss: The occasional Margarita.

What I’m looking forward to: Next appointment so I can hear that little heart beat again!

Bump: No actually bump yet but feeling thicker in the middle!

Exercise: With my stomach issues this week, I took it easy on the exercise but plan to step it up!

This week’s takeaway: Like last week, REST IS ESSENTIAL!

*alway discuss your pregnancy nutritional needs with your healthcareprovider.


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